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Yeap. It’s OVER~~ <Picture on the left> Here I’m seen rolling up the carpet on Yayasan Sabah’s Stage after Midnight Puppet 2007 finally comes to an end. Richard (our camera man) took that picture whilst talking to me and without me knowing exactly who and when he snapped the photo. But it looked good~ Thanks Richard!

It was a really long 2 months, preparing for Midnight Puppet - The Musical. Now I really don’t remember anything in particular if you want me to recall back the 4 concerts (2 in KL, 2 in KK). Tell me Midnight Puppet now, all I remember is falling into the deep ocean in KK off the banana boat with my friends. I think that’s the only time I actually "enjoyed" myself. I would say the concerts so pack and full, I don’t know which moment exactly to remember. And plus the fact that I always end up as a walking zombie after concerts… so my brain decided to keep the banana boat part as Midnight Puppet 2007’s memory. Well, it is the happiest time anyway.

Midnight Puppet K.L. 12th August 2007 - DISASTEROUS. We didn’t start on time due to the lack of time conscious from our stage manager. Well, it wasn’t particularly her fault due to the late arrival of our backdrop-hanger-person-in-charge, but she’s the stage manager so she’ll have to take the blame. THEN the sound was miraculously HORRIBLE because the supposedly 1 hour and 30 minutes sound check ended with just 15 minutes. Hey, I complained. But my complain was ignored, what to do? The mics that were suppose to be at the back where the choir stood weren’t there and what left was two empty mic stands and nobody informed me that they were cutting down the 2 mics and asked my opinion and I didn’t know about it UNTIL the show started. So. Die lar. Oh and the kids didn’t have time to change their costume for one scene and the poor soloist had to sing herself throughout… the WHOLE choir dissapeared. I nearly fainted on stage.

Midnight Puppet K.L. 13th August - OKAY. Okay okay lar, everything from yesterday fixed. The lights were in place, the sounds were there, the people were okay. Oh, the acting/singing/dancing were great today and the kids managed to change into their clothes. THANK GOD I asked the videoman to come record today and not the day before.

Midnight Puppet KK01 19th August - OKAY. The show was okay, just that I wasn’t on STAGE. Because our lighting people who THOUGHT they could make it and still THINK they can make it CANNOT. So, I had to take up the lighting job. The preparation nearly made me die of blood and organs puking. Thanks to our dearest organizer and the organizing team. Not going to mention what, why, where, who. But, it was hideously horribly HORRIBLE. And well, give me a second chance I’d rather not do the show AT ALL. Well, considering that I’m the: 1) Producer 2) Composer 3) Music Director 4) Team Leader 5) Lighting Instructor 6) Stage Manager 7) General To-dos Manager… of course I feel like dying. And with everyone’s asses stuck to their faces, of course it doesn’t make my job any lighter or easier. The bad thing is just the sound: clip-mics fell off, went off, KABOOOMMMED. Okay lar, but take it as an experience. I really did learn a lot.

Midnight Puppet KK02 19th August - Quite Good. I think the best out of all… it would be better if all the kids didn’t fall sick. But, it’s the best out of all. And better still, it’s THE END!

So after a very VERY very busy and hectic 2 months of Summer Break, I’m finally ready to … really take a BREAK. But, "lucky" me. I’m stuck in mom’s studio to look at the door and wait for the phone to ring whilst mom and sis enjoy their little "business" trip to GuangZhou. Okay lor, so much for a "holiday" break eh?

Well, at least I still get to treat myself to movies lar. Just watched Ratatouile yesterday at Galaxy Ampang’s MBO Theatre. DOUBLE THUMB-UPS for it~ Really touchy, good 3D animation, nice story-line… oh-well, it’s a disney+pixar film. How bad can it get? No, shouldn’t put it that way. It SHOULD be GOOD… Haha…

I’m heading back to Beijing this coming Sunday, 9th September 2007 to start my 2nd year in the Central Conservatory of Music, Beijing, China for my conducting studies, bachelor degree. It’s going to be very rush though, flying on the 9th and reaching on school-day itself. But, oh well… cheap air-ticket mar. Transit somore… alone… transit… in thailand… 3 hour wait… unknown language… unknown place… unknown people = SCARY. Nah, go sit in McD lor, how bad can it get? McD mar.

LittleNoise has officially come to a long long pause after our gathering last Saturday. It’s really sad… but, everybody will move on. Hopefully the long pause will run again someday. ^^ You can always leave LittleNoise, but it never leaves your heart. Cheers to all of you who stuck to the end! I’m going to miss the days with all of you~

Last but not least, to the person who came into my heart at the time I needed someone most, wonder when I can blog about you. ^^

The Conclusion: My summer 2007 was hot. As it is always in Malaysia…

I cannot BELIEVE it!! It’s already AUGUST! WHAT on EARTH? Lolx. I’m only blogging for the sake of blogging… so that my dearest duckiedroplets won’t be too empty.

Seriously don’t know how or where to begin with, that’s why I just stopped blogging for the while. There’s just TOO much going on lately. Some sweet, some sour, some salty, some spicy… but all of it will contribute into the many colors of my lovely 19 year old life.I’m so going to freak out when December comes… DON’T ask me why.

Midnight Puppet is going on fine, I suppose. Well, all of you dearest readers should REALLY REALLY come and watch this production. It’s really worth watching. By the way, I was on TheStar Metro on last Tuesday… Just go to TheStar.com.my and search for "Midnight Puppet" and you’ll see 3 articles. ^^

I’m kinda getting use to the "not coming", "not feeling well" and "not performing" situation. Well, maybe for that certain day I will probably be vomiting my organs out thinking of ways to resolve the problem. But, after the day goes, then… you realize that, "Hey, things aren’t so bad after all." Okay lar, it was really horribly and terribly depressing… but, hey, how bad can it go when it’s already THAT bad. Hahahaha… Cheers to all those that stood by Midnight Puppet and wants it to success.

Was chatting with mom and friends about the term "professionals"… haha, and we came up with "If you’re not 21, you’re no professional." Lolx… mom adds on "SO you have to keep working hard when you’re not 21, in order to achieve the professional status once you reach the age." lolx. so sweat. Nowadays, people tend to think they are
"pro" just because of the small achievements they make in life. And they I(mostly artists) start to live up to the so-call "pro" attitude like: "Coming late or not coming at all without a phone call to acknowledge people, think that what ever they do is perfect and people that comments or gives a lil’ negative opinions are jerks who talk a lot and does nothing, turns the table over if you don’t agree with what they think, talks and looks as though the world owes them money." Thankfully I see all this and will try my best not to let all these happen on me.

Went to The Summer Singers’ concert on last Sunday, had to choose to go between Witches of Oz and theirs. But basically I didn’t have the choice lar, cuz I’m Mr. Low’s darling baby student and almost all SS people know that I’m going… so if I don’t turn up it’ll be kinda bad of me. It’s nice to see changes in them… instead of the all-black attire and stand still on stage singing a-cappella. They added in movements and dance choreographs, making the whole concert come very much to live. Haha, I don’t know if I should say this, but cheers LN? LOL…. YAY, we set the trend! (Eleh, perasan). Okay larrr okay larrr…

Well, haven’t talk about school? HOLIDAYS MARR!!!! Never do homework tim… lolx. Can’t believe I’m starting my 2nd year ALREADY. Wuahlao, I’m going to have juniors! Hahahaha… wonder if I’m going to get a girl/guy junior. Hopefully it’s the latter… wakaka. Miang. Oh well, opposites attract marr~~~~ PLUS. I still like the thought of being the youngest and THE ONLY girl pupil of my teacher. Don’t wanna share that with anybody else. *(&^%W#&^*@#. LOL… Just kidding.

I’m currently stuck in Simshen, helping mom pick up the phone and watch the door see if anybody wants to break the glass and budge in to steal chinese traditional instruments that would probably take them a few trucks to carry. … … thankfully there’s the brilliant invention of the internet and wireless networks with unsecured passwords. HAHAHAHA, if not I’d be bore to death. Will be working here until I return to Beijing because darling Angie started uni… I DUN WAN!!!! I WAN MY HOLIDAYS!!!!

Aiyar, what ever lar. It’s not like I have a choice. Blekx. Oooh, went for a haircut and treatment yesterday… the massage was real good. But it’s still ex larrr… compared to Beijing. Lolx. OKay, dun compare. But it’s nice to go and get a haircut, makes you feel… very pampered. Although your purse will probably be puking blood, but once in a while is still worth it. PLUS, my fringe needed very badly to be trimmed off.

Me and mom are on okay grounds nowadays, "it" happened of course. But, it always does. Especially near concerts. But she’s learning to let go a little bit more… okay larr, I still have like really early curfews and I cannot go out a lot (Basically she’d be happiest if I stay in her sight all day long). Hahaha, some times it feels as though being the younger one is really lucky. Because when the first one goes through everything and settles most of your parents’ uncertainty, you get to get what the first one don’t get that easily very berry much easier. HOR? Lolx. No complains. I WANT TO GO OUT LAR.

Am leaving for Sabah next week, there’s a press conference over there for Midnight Puppet 2007. Am kinda worried… okay, I worry all the time. Think of too many possibilities that might be happening when they haven’t happen. MIDNIGHT PUPPET, you better turn out good. Afterall, you might be the end to the choir I love most… we love most. ^^ Like I’ve always said: "You may leave the LittleNoise Choir, but it will never leave you." *wipes tears* Happy 5th birthday LittleNoise~~ hopefully you will live till your 6th… and more. Hehe, we’ll never know.

Okay. Crap a lot edi… no one on MSN for me to CHAT marrr… so marr chat with myself lorrrrrrr. Chaox.

I’ve been busy with LittleNoise…

VERY VERY BUSY…

Midnight Puppet - The Musical

Check out the details here: http://littlenoise.miles-apart.net

It’s been… Meeting… Practices… MORE meetings… fixing things … and etc.

VERY BUSY LORRRR.

So far I’ve only went out on 2 outings…

1) LeAnne. Le anne lorr… yea, she’s back from Japan… going back soon before she leaves for USA. Lucky gal.

2) Harry Potter 5. HOW CAN I MISS IT? Ya lor.

Other outings are mostly LittleNoise and/or Midnight Puppet occupied.

How’s things going on with the Musical: "HECTIC". First you get people not coming, people not making it for practices and telling you last minute, people QUITTING like 3 weeks before the musical, your dance choreographer going mad at you, your director wants to jump off the building… so how’s the musical?? You tell me lar~

But it’s better than last year. Because at least I’m not the only one holding the burden~~ and I get to manja manja around. ohohoho. Oh well, says mom: The more sparkles they are, the greater your outcome will be. (有更多的火花，结果会更美丽）

CHEERS TO MIDNIGHT PUPPET 2007 AND EVERYBODY WORKING HARD FOR IT!

OVER.

Exams are FINALLY DONE and over with…

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okay lar. I still have English tomorrow. But… WHAT THE HELL.

WoooYaay~~ I am back to BLOGGING. hrm. If I’m not too busy with Midnight Puppet. Hehehe… hehe… HAHAHA.

I’m going home~~~ I’m going home~~ I’m going home~~~

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It’s the post-examination-fever.

Fate. Just receieved a new message in friendster, this guy telling me that he’s still single and is waiting for fate to show him his path. Do I believe in fate? I can’t NOT believe after what I’ve experienced for the pass 4 to 5 months. BUT… fate can be rather funny some times.

Let’s see… fate brought me to know X and let all sorts of crazy fate-ish things occur and happen between us. Seeing each other at the craziest hours, bumping into each other at the weirdest corners, thinking and breathing about just the same air. Someone whom you have no idea about suddenly grows ultimately close to you… And just when you think hey, he might be your "one and only"… and just when you start to believe that, this might be "it". Then fate grins and sends a joke up your doorstep… and says: Oh, I’m attached to somebody else.

Thunderstrikes? Earthquakes? Tsunamis? Name it. Get it. To person above: "OKAY. So if it wasn’t meant to be??? What’s with all the surprises? What’s with all the possibilities??? What’s your PROBLEM??? FUN IZZIT???"

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Recently. When people start asking: "Do you have a boyfriend?". All I found myself doing was "smile". If it was me 3 months ago, I might say: "NAH" without thinking. Do I have a boyfriend? *smiles*. No. He’s not my boyfriend… but I can’t seem to answer that question.

I don’t know what fate is trying to do now… are you bringing me a new best friend? Or are you bringing me somebody that I might hurt if I do anything experimental stupidly?

"If it is yours. It’s yours" A-hah… how do you know it’s yours? How can you be sure. "You cannot be sure of anything in Love. It’s a mystery for yours to be solve." A-hah… So even if you see an almost-road-end in front of you, you continue walking until you REALLY reach the road-end and then bump yourself hard? Or maybe you just not walk and never know whether if you will ever reach that road-end?

OKAY. If it’s mine… Why make it SO darn hard? Because Life is??? Lolx. My mom actually asked me when I’m getting a boyfriend…twice. WOW… my mom??? Sick in the head eh? I’ve been thinking for some time now, and I don’t think it’s really time for my to settle or commit into a relationship. It wouldn’t be fair for the other because I have nothing to promise…

If my boyfriend’s in Beijing… what happens when I go overseas to furtherstudy my masters 4 years later? Where am I going? I don’t know where EXACTLY, but I’m definitely going. If he’s not going? … Then what if my boyfriends’ back in KL? Long distance relationship? See each other 2 months per year in midst this 5 years of my bachelor degree? Then not see each other during my masters and PHD? Or pray that fate will bring us together somewhere out there?

But I do love. and I wanna be love… So haha… I read in this article somewhere on the web analysing people born on the same day as I am, saying we are: "Part-time Lovers". I think it’s quite appropriate to put it that way for now… There’s no relationship… No commitments… no promises. Just… more than "just friends". Better than besties… just… Just "us".

If love can see us through, then we’ll be together… somewhere out there where dreams come true. Like they say, if it’s yours… it’s yours. *shrugs* Sad life.

Do you remember the first day you receive a strange phone call with this really loud and noisy person on the end of the line telling you: "Hoi… Let’s sing!"

Do you remember the first time we gathered together at the small little room after our standard six graduation and sung little octaves together?

Do you remember the first time we staged during Simshen’s annual concert and sung "Worm Worm Fly" (Lolx) in ACAPELLA, and was loved by almost all the audiences (and ourselves)?

Do you remember the first time when we named ourselves and had our own first concert dressed like milkmaids and milkman and black?

Do you remember the first sarong we wore?

Do you remember the first time we went for competition and it was already a HUGE INTERNATIONAL CHORAL FESTIVAL and we brought home a gold and silver medal?

Do you remember how we yelled and screamed like morons, jumped and danced like monkeys and made everyone "sweat" when the MC announced the results?

Do you remember how we don’t care what people think of us and do all sorts of CRAZY things like sing on the street (Masjid Jamek), on the stairs, in the field, near the pool…nearly in the toilet?

Do you remember our BBQs, birthday celebrations, Merdekas, New Year Count-downs, and every event that we could celebrate together, we … celebrated together?

Do you remember the first medley we sang?

Do you remember our yellow tee-shirt that has an angel and devil printed on it that we proudly wear and walk around as a group, not afraid that people will laugh at?

Do you remember our very own first scripted musical made of all sorts of chap-palang music and had a crazy script to follow it?

Do you remember the laughters and tears that we went through together?

Do you remember every member that left and why they left?

Do you remember the place where we go for practice every Saturday (some times sunday) and some of us have to go extra early to sell hot dogs?

Do you remember the applauses and smiles on all our audiences, because they were touched by the music we so loudly and generously share with all our hearts?

Do you remember that you sung because you love to sing and not because you NEED to sing?

Do you remember the best of friends that you met and made and are greater and closer friends with them ever since?

Do you remember our very own musical that made audiences cried?

Do you remember how we all squeezed like sardin in that little recording studio and sung Hold On Tight together?

Do you remember our song?

Do you remember?

Do you remember?

Do you remember…The LittleNoise Choir?

If you don’t remember, maybe you should start remembering now…

If you cannot remember still, then you should start making some memories to remember.

"You may always leave the LittleNoise Choir, but the choir never leaves you."

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someones thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someones saying a prayer
That we’ll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we’ll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
on the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we’ll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true…

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It’s really funny how the funny and lovely things sparkle in life, how wonderful they could be seen and felt but never owned. Really like this song~

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I failed rope skipping… not exactly "failed" larr… cuz teacher’s giving me a second chance. But… it’s not like I’m going to PASS it.

It’s like this. My hands and feet DO NOT co-ordinate very well…. I jump like this: "Hand once, feet twice." Not the usual: "hand once, feet once." So… I can’t make the passing mark… which is at 120 times in 60 seconds. That’s to PASS only… to get good marks, you must reach 170 times in 60 seconds. WITHOUT stopping.

*WAILS*

The teacher’s making me change my way of rope skipping… says her: SKIP 15 MINUTES A DAY! CHANGE! I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT.

Me: =_=""" (say very easy larr… I’ve been skipping like this since I was like 2 years old lerrr… not like I cannot skip, you make me skip 1000 times larr. aiyorr)

So… AHHHHHHH.

Hate Rope Skipping… why must we have P.E. EXAMS???? In UNIVERSITIES????? Not like it’s my MAiN SUBJECT. I don’t STUDY P.E…. I am NOT going to TEACH P.E> NOR am I going to rope-skip in Olympics… WHY~~~~~

*goes practice*

My teacher wants me to get the rope skipping thing right by the end of this semester… which is in 2 months time. @.@ Kill me. I’m gonna fail P.E.

Chelsea posted this on the bulletin… I’ve also read it from somewhere else… But I still think it’s nice to read. It’s especially satisfying when you reach the last one. =) Nice to keep…

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel, and then regret it.

2. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

3. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship and find out that you still care for that person.

4. A sad thing in life is, you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be, and you just have to let go.

5. When the door of happiness closes, another opens. But often at times we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us.

6. The best kind of friend is the kind whom you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you have ever had.

7. It is true that we do not know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we do not know what we have been missing until it arrives.

8. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Do not expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart. But if it does not, be content that it grew in yours.

9. There are things you would love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear them from; but do not be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says
it from his heart.

10. Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up if you
still feel you can go on. Never say you do not love a person anymore if you cannot let go.

11. Love comes to those who still hope although they have been disappointed, to those who still believe although they have been betrayed, to those who still love although they have been hurt before.

12. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone. But it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

13. Do not go for looks; they can deceive. Do not go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one that makes you smile.

14. There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that special someone.

15. Dream what you want to dream. Go where you want to go. Be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and only one chance to do all the things you want to do.

16. May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

17. Always put yourself in other’s shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person, too.

18. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck a life. A timely word may level stress. A loving word may heal and bless.

19. The beginning of love is to let those we love just be themselves and not twist them with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

20. The happiest of people do not necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

21. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried; for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

22. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.

23. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches

24. When you were born, you were crying, and everyone around you was =)