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Merdeka celebration night was planned to be "supposingly" FUN and EXCITING with lots of craps to say. But everything turned out a lil’ dull. My handphone rang with Gary’s voice singing superwoman, I smiled, knowing who’d it be on the other line since I was expecting him to call - Baaaa. As expected, he had reached Stevens Corner. The gang (WaChaw,YeeIee, Benny, KhaiShin, Me and Baaaa) was supposed to meet up around 7++pm before we head off for a going-to-be-good pool game. Well, Benny joined us soon… Khai Shin came… whilst YeeIee and WaChaw called us, telling that they are still at LOW YAT (around 15minutes drive excluding jam from Pdn Indah).

The 4 of us ended up crapping a lot… then in midst of crapping, my phone rang… "Lost it all…" Yaiks, scary ring tone. Guess what? I totally forgot that I actually have piano class with WenXin. Yay me.So, I ran all the way to simshen, thought my  "LOVELY" student who, for 5 weeks still played the same boring old thing (never practice). But considering that this was going to be my last lesson with her, aiyar, let it be lar. So what if she played like some wreck. I’m not gonna see her anymore lor… Hohoho.

Went back to Stevens to join them, but got bored very soon and ended up heading home with Benny accompanying me cuz I need to save some information to YeeIee’s pendrive. But that fellow’s pendrive never Mandi for very long, a lot of rubbish inside… so, couldn’t fit all my PSD files. Ended up saving it into my sister’s MP4 instead.

The whole lot (Plus on SinYue, ChiewYuin, FungLing and a surprise visit from ZhiWei) went up to ChiewYuin’s place and waited for the clock to strike 12, resembling the 49th birthday of Malaysia where there’ll be fireworks shooting from different places. We sat down at this mamak, up slope… and crap more. Talk nonsense lar basically… what’s noise makers for? THAT Baaa ahh, he HAD to mention the movie "CLICK" in front of me, ehhh? Lolx. And this time was worst, thanks to Benny, self-claiming that he’s a dog. Sweat.

The fireworks ended up to be BORING. Lolx. Nothing special lar… 49 years of Merdeka and still under-developed, what to expect? Lolx. We headed back to Chiew Yuin’s place where Khai Shin butt down in front of the computer and went online (sigh, what to do? Her computer kaputed)… I was given permission to stay over at her place tonight… and she didn’t seem as though she wanted to head home very much after sitting down in front of the computer. I fell asleep waiting on the sofa, snuggling my head in between pillows. Lolx. The very nice YeeIee with horrible brek-consistancy drove us home, and well, considering my very easy-to-get car-sick, I got very dizzy. He was SO lucky I didn’t decide to throw up in the car. Lolx.

Khai Shin’s place? Was DESASTEROUS! Almost Hell… Let’s start with the very cold "air-con", making me sneeze my head off in the first place, and unable to sleep. Khai Shin was downstairs watching her korean soup drama, so to ease my chill, I went up and down the stairs to pay her some visit, hehe. Benny stayed over too, he well, was busy on the phone (as usual) before he went bathing. My eyes were burning, but I can’t seem to sleep. Hehe, cold was good. Good reason to snuggle snuggle into meaty-meaty human beings sleeping beside me. Then suddenly, the air-con decided that: "Hey, I’m also cold lar…"… so it auto-turned-off itself. Leaving us laughing at the perfect timing it turned itself off. We on the fan instead, chat chat chat chat chat chat chat… until, I hear myself more than I hear him. Lolx.

As Khai Shin’s plan to "Watch till I finish EVERYTHING" fail, my REAL nightmare begin. She scrambled into the supposingly half for one queen-sized bed and slept beside Benny, leaving me sleeping at the end of the bed. Whoops. In the middle of the night, the two decided to test how heart-to-heart and mind-to-mind they are closely attached to by : "Let’s move ourselves to the right and tug the blanket to the left." Leaving me with almost NO blanket and practically NO space to sleep. Our very-strong guy even managed to roll me off the bed 3 times in a roll. THANK YOU VERY MUCH~! Lolx. So, I could say: "I DIDN"T SLEEP!"

Morning came soon, I was the first to wake. (Like DUH). Had this bowl of very nice home-made ban mee by Khai Shin’s mother before the bunch of us went out to Simshen. Met up with Wa Chaw, Yi Fen and Zhen Lin before heading off to Sri Petaling to meet Mr. Lim. The clumsy me left Mr. Lim’s cheque at Khai Shin’s place… so kind Wa Chaw had to fetch us back to Khai Shin’s, get the cheque and leave again for Sri Petaling.

Meeting with Mr.Lim was okay lar. Normal normal lor…
Things we discussed:
1) How was Midnight Puppet
2) 2008 Musical Plans
3) 2007 Pattaya Competition
4) 2007 Pre-Competition Concert
and etc. His not-bad-looking-violinist/tenor student came along with him. Hehe. There’s chemistry rousing in the air ooh…Nah. He’s been giving me electric eye-shots from time to time, and the last hand-grip that lasted more than 10seconds wasn’t an accident. So not my type though, looks-and-career-wise. Personality-wise, dunno lar. Hehe.

After our meeting, we headed back to Pandan Indah. Dropped Benny off at Pandan Indah LRT station, said good bye to my deary unwillingly after a very huge teddy-bear hug which made YiFen squeel (since when she doesn’t). After that they all headed to SinYue’s place and hang out whilst I went home, bath and napped slightly. We re-joined sooner after and went to Leisure Mall for dinner.

Thus the day ended, my lovely outings with all my lovely ex-noisemakers//friends hence comes to a full-stop. I’ll be looking forward to my Chinese New Year holidays when I come back. Lots of love to everybody, MUACKS~! See you all in Beijing, see you (talking to my blog) in Beijing (where the net surfing speed is SO much better than streamyx) too!

Me: It’s LittleNoise Decision… whether they want to participate in what category, let the choir decide.

Why did I say that? What happened before it?
Me and her were talking about today’s meeting with Mr. Lim where he had suggested that the choir only take part in the Folklore category and not participate in the Junior Youth Category.

Reason: Lack of people. PLUS the secondary school choirs from Singapore are really good, cuz they train almost full time… unlike us leisure people.

Did I tell her the reason? Yes.

I only told her that phrase when she questioned about Mr.Lim doing the deciding… then she started asking WHY is HE doing the decision… so, I mar say that lor.

But now she’s MAD at me because she’s saying I’m not letting her take-charge of what she’s supposed to be in charge of. errr.. huh? Hullo? And she calls me sensitive because every time she questions because she wants to know and cares about the choir, I will push her out of the door.

I asked her, "Why do you want to do this now? I’m leaving for Beijing tomorrow already…"
She answered, "Is There gonna be any difference? I’d rather do it now then fight with you over an ocean!"
Me: (Sweat drop besar besar) Then? You wanna fight now meh?
She: WATCH YOUR TONGUE. (Starts nagging)

What she Nags about:
1) Why is the choir under her charge
2) How much is the choir costing her for every vocal lesson from Mr. Lim
3) Why and how I am always sensitive when it comes to issues about the choir

… and a lot more that covers around mostly the LittleNoise topic… I can’t remember exactly what she was saying because well, I was playing "She’s back" in my mind. Lolx. What to do? I was packing before that and was already singing it in my mind, then she suddenly starts the nagging/scolding/yelling, takkan I cut my song all of a sudden. My bad, my bad. Wakakaka…

PLUS, I’m leaving tomorrow. So I’m letting her say/nag/yell/scold what ever she likes lar, no biggie. It’s not my first time being misunderstood. Lazy to explain to her what I actually meant, although I know I should. But not now lar, her brain won’t take in no matter how logical I sound.

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2 hours passed.
So, like every other time after she yells at me, she’ll always tend to act kind and wise, put down her face and ego bla bla bla… sit me down, and talk. Well, after my brilliant explaination with a kind and wise tone, she actually accepted it. LOLX. Well, of course she’ll always mention in the end how it was all her right doings… *laughs plus eye-roll*

It’s been some time since I’ve posted online, well… blogged. Things are pretty hectic these days round, especially with life going on in the recording studio. It’s been really really really busy and I don’t think I can recall exactly what had happened because everyday I use up most of the energy I can find inside me, plus the still-unknown-factor to my sleepless nights, you could say that I am almost living in this dreaming realm at times. Like now, I feel myself floating somewhere, it’s hard to concentrate properly and focus to do one thing. Even during recordings, when ever we take a short break I’ll feel myself floating away. But it’s still weird, because as physically tired I can be, my mind doesn’t seem to want to rest.

Let’s see… I went back to Penang for the weekends to celebrate my grandma’s birthday. Came back on Sunday night// Monday Morning to be exact… then started my recording life.

We started recording on Monday and it’s Wednesday today. Right? Lolx. Monday’s recording… we were supposed to start recording at 1:00PM but when we reached Avenue 1 (recording venue) we found out that everything’s not prepared. (Note "We": YiFen, Me, Rong, Benny, YeeIee) How did we go there? We went by LRT, reached Bandar Tasik Selatan’s LRT Station, took a cab and went there. Since I’ve already been there before, I led the way, sitting in the cab with Yee Iee whilst the others took another cab and followed ours. So, since everything’s not prepared for us (No piano) , we waited. The piano came around 2:30PM and when everything’s done, I started recording on the (digital) piano. Finished everything in 3 hours (totally left out Rudolphs’ part in Finale, but recorded the next day d) then the mixer, Serene told us that we can go take dinner and come back around 1 hour ++ because she’ll need some time to transfer the files. So the 5 of us went to the nearby mamak stall and ate. The food’s not good… but it’s cheap lar, so don’t expect too much lor. But there’s only Mamak around that area, what to do? Day one ended pretty quickly after the very tiring rounds of recording starting with Rong’s Maybe… then Yee Iee’s, YiFen’s solo here and there and Benny + YiFen.

The 5 of us went home, tired and weary. Benny stayed over at my place and slept on Angie’s bed cuz Angie went back to Ipoh. He falls asleep very quickly, Rong wasn’t bad either… lolx. Angie’s still the best company at night cuz she won’t leave me with my eyes open and snore loudly. At least she’ll try to accompany me… unlike these to piggies. Lolx. Benny even managed to kicked his blanky somewhere else (foot of the bed) and yanked at my hand (which was hanging at the edge of my bed) hard as though he was tugging his blanket. Sweat. I just FELL deep asleep, freaked the hell out of me you freako~! Kick Kick Kick, then cold d sleep tille until look like prawn. Lolx… nevermind lar, I forgive you.

The second day of recording… (Yesterday) started very early in the morning as I had asked them to come for practice again… like Monday. (Note "them": Benny, May Chong, Shu Sim, Kai Shi, 3 Fairy Godmothers) This day’s recording started at 12pm and ended around 6pm. Everything went on "ookay" I guess. Wouldn’t mention much about the exact incident that had gone on because I don’t really remember. At night, a few of us plus another few that joined us later on went to Amway’s seminar, plus a good ichiban dinner at jusco. (Note "a few of us": Khai Shin, Zhen Lin, Angie, Benny and Me) The seminar by David Yong was rather humerous (or rather cold), but Khai Shin was very entertaining because she kept laughing like some moron and the other two guys can’t stop critisizing her, and I keep laughing like Benny.. OH NO. Lolx.

How was today? My mind is malfunctioning at this precise moment, so I’m going to do this short and brief. I woke up around 9am today (I slept rather well, 3am to 9am without waking in the middle) by Khai Shin’s sms telling me that I can reach around 10am for practice. I headed to Simshen after buying Nasi Lemak from the auntie downstairs who insist I look like Karen from Akademi Fantasia.. lolx. Just as I was about to reach Simshen, I witness Chelsea and KokBeng get off their vehicles and smiled at me. I blinked. Then blinked again. Then my jaw dropped. Then they started laughing… Well, I didn’t expect them (LittleNoise members soon-to-be) to come. But looks like I’m one of those left behind on this particular matter. Well, our practice started off pretty quickly after some good games of poker. Hahahaha… cheer Yee Iee for bringing his poker cards.

The whole choir sat in 3 different cars and headed to the studio around 2pm. (Oh, forgot to mention the change of time geh story… that Botz called me in the middle of the night on Tuesday and told me that they couldn’t make it untill 3pm. The recording was supposed to be at 12pm.) Then we started our hard-knock-recording-life. Today was the MOST tiring day compared to the days before… I found myself drifting away a lot, plus with all the emotional rise and downs thanks to all my lovely LittleNoise makers. Won’t jot down too much details, let’s hope some of you others blog more than I do lar… Lolx.

Salutes and Cheers to The LittleNoise Choir. Thank you for being capable of tolerating my crazy emotions. I know I can be pretty insane some times… Hehe. Lots of love.

August 17 - My longest day out with friends without my mom calling like every other hour to remind me that it’s time to go home. YAY MY SISTER~! Hohoho. She’s been officially offered a place in the MPYO (Malaysian Philharmornic Youth Orchestra), and my mom’s being very happy about it. Hence, she nodded almost immediately when I asked her if I could go out after going to check out the studio. AND I only told her, "Wa Chaw is driving", she didn’t even asked who else was going. Wow. Great improvements. Lolx.

It had been a horrible night for me. First I couldn’t sleep at all till 2am in the morning… then when I finally fell asleep, I woke up an hour later with a massive headache that feels as though some drilling machine is drillling in and out of my head. It was horrible, I thought I could force myself back into my hard-found sleep, but I ended up running to the washroom and throwing up. GAH. I hate throwing up, but when ever the drilling machine starts working hard, I’ll end up this way. My body was heating up pretty fast, and lying on the bed wouldn’t bring me any peace. So I grabbed my pillow, blanky and snoopy before I walked out into the living room and lay down on the floor, enjoying the coolness of the marble grounds I lay upon twirling up my spine and into every inch of my skin. The pain was too hard to endour, but I still managed to cry myself to bed.

Approximately 6am, my dad stood towering over me and shook me awake. Just when I had a good two hour sleep with my headache pumping slightly. GREAT. "Rong, wake up. Rong… Time to go to school." I rolled my eye, "Ugh… I’m Gan Jia Ying lar dad, geee" Then my dad started laughing, before he quickly sneaked into my room and out of my sight. I shook my head slightly before falling back to sleep.

Morning 8:35am I woke up to Lee Hom’s voice singing "Forever Love" on my handphone, unwillingly though… because it was early and I only slept for ++– four hours. But couldn’t seem to whack myself back into the sleeping mood. Morning called Benny around 9am, then started preparing myself. Was supposed to meet Wa Chaw and pick up Benny at the LRT around 11am. But that darling potato had to call me approximately 10:50am and say: "ahhhh, Ying! I’m so sorry, I jz woke up!" My reaction was, "Eh? But Wa Chaw usually doesn’t forget geh worx." I laughed and shrugged, was hoping to get out of the house faster, but it seems that’s kinda impossible now. Hehe, but I was clever. My phone needed to be reloaded, so I took that as an excuse to go out of the house.

Met up with Benny soon after that by asking the fellow to walk to my place, but he took the wrong side of the road and ended up at SinYue’s place instead. (People with terrible sense of directions… lolx) So I went and meet him up. Wa Chaw came very soon and we headed to the studio - Avenue 1, around Tasik Selatan area. We thought it’d be hard to get to the place because none of us has been there, and all we have is some slight directions from my dad and well, a map…But we reached there in no time, we got there without going in any wrong directions. Yay us! Haha…

The supposedly "Bobby" turned out to be "Botz". That Khai Shin ahh, tell people the wrong name, memalukan saje. Gee. Botz came out to meet us after a very long doorbell-ringing by the trio (us). He probably just woke up, and asked us to come back in 10 minutes as he prepared himself. We shrugged and agreed, well, what else to do? Went to the nearby supermarket and the two got themselves chocolate milk. I didn’t feel like taking in anything too milky at the moment so I ended up empty handed. We strolled back to the studio after approximately 10-15 minutes and took a good view of the studio. Nice. Can’t wait to start recording already. My last few days in KL would be fun, exciting and action-packed. I can already tell.

Our next destination was One Utama shopping complex in Bandar Utama. Thanks to all of our great sense of direction and the smooth trafic in KL (rare-nya), we reached pretty quickly, parked at E25 Jusco section before hurrying to start our shopping spree. After some rantless walking around the HUGE mall, we got a lil’ tired and sat down to wait for Pui Mun’s arrival.

We walked around more before Pui Mun’s stomach started growling and demanded us to go eat something. But my eyes caught upon the HUGE 70% sale hanging at SEED + PADINI + PDI store and I couldn’t resist walking into it. Haha, they waited for me as I tried on this 89.90 skirt. The really friendly shop assistant came to me and explained that the two layers of skirt can be removed and attached as I wish, lol… she was REALLY friendly. Haha, she practically just flipped the skirt up in the middle of the shop (Benny says he didn’t see anything)… Hahaha. "Whoops, sorry…" she said, I shook my head in laughters and said nevermind, afterall, my thigh don’t really look that bad lar. Wakaka. The funny thing was, she actually flipped it again to show me that it’s detacheble. Lolx. Sweat lar… I raised my eyebrow and laughed.

We ended up at the cinema’s cafe and ate a pan of pizza where pui mun ended up swallowing half of it (Benny went upstairs for para para… again.) Then as we sat and wait for the movie "click to start at 4:40pm, the few self-obssesed teens (us), started taking pictures of … ourselves! Of course~!

Click was FANTASTIC. Seriously good… it wasn’t exactly funny funny. But it triggered my heart a lot. Tears started dropping when he faced problems with his work and couldn’t juggle between his family and career. Then of course as the movie went on, I cried even more hysterically. Gah. Some phrases ticks me very easily, the one that makes me cry most when ever it appears is this: "Will you still love me in the morning?" I don’t need to know the answer to that question, when ever that question was asked, I’ll cry like some moron. I love cheesy cheesy phrases like that… haha, but who doesn’t? Like: "It’s okay, I’m here." … "You know you don’t have to be strong all the time." … Oooh… these two phrases practically kills. Lolx.

After the movie, I was in VERY-TIRED-because-I-cried-too-much mood. The few of us decided it was time to head back after a call from Benny’s relative who about some problems… Pui Mun went home herself… We trios went back, fighting through the horrible trafic and puking blood from our wallet every time we pass the kesas highway toll. Lolx.

As though the day hadn’t been tiring enough, we three went for a brief chat and a good dinner in Stevens Corner… Cheap food, good service, nice place to chat without worrying the next table would listen to what you say. Plus, I’m gonna miss all the sambals, tosais and what ever the place offers when I leave. It was an awesome day, can’t wait to go out again and hang out like this.

Cheers to all of you: Pui Mun, Wa Chaw and Benny deary.

Cheers to me too~! Hehe.

Sat on my bed and stared at my room for a very long time after the massive clean-up this morning. Well, the clean up started yesterday morning where I started packing most of my clothes into my huge luggage. My closet that was filled with clothes suddenly seemed very empty as only a bundle of them was left stacked in one small corner. Well, I didn’t pack everything into the luggage lar, some of those clothes that I rarely wear, I packed them into a box and hid them away. There are some that I’m going to keep them here, so when I come back I have clothes to wear… but well, it just does feels weird when everything is so neat. Well, not NEAT exactly… It’s more like empty.

I even cleaned up Angie’s closet because I really COULDN’T stand looking at the pile of mountain all mixed up together. Well, before it became her closet, it was the closet for all our (me, rong and angie) concert/performance costumes… Blouses, blazers, skirts…dresses…etc. Actually it still is our performance costume closet, just with the add-ins of Angie’s daily-wear.

Finally, when I finish piling up Angie’s clothes nicely… the costume closet looked neat… plus with my lovely color-coordinated-arrangement, it looked really pro. Lolx. Now since my closet is empty, Angie could use it and claim it officially as hers. Aww, I’m so gonna miss my closet.

Today… I started cleaning up my desk in my room where it is piled with all kinds of nonsense. When I was done with it, I suddenly notice that a lot of "me’ was gone. My row of favorite books (The Harry Potter and GlassWright Series) was gone, all tucked away safely in my first drawer, wrapped and cleaned. My green cow saving box was kept locked along with my old old diary at the bottom drawer along with some other personal belongings that I treasure… cards, letters, some small pressies from friends.

Looked around my room again after the long almost 3 hour clean-up. Hehe, I’m a messy person… lolx. And I create tons of rubbish. So whene everything is gone, suddenly it feels empty. I wonder how would Rong and Angie feel when I am out of the picture. Aww.. I’m so gonna miss everybody. I’m tearing down LeeHom’s poster on the wall and tucking them away safe and nice. As the days pass, shadows of me would slowly waddle away.

But of course, nobody will ever miss  seeing the largest item that’ll remind everyone in the house of me… hehe, my baby grand piano. Hrm… then again. Mom’s probably gonna shift it over to Simshen. That means the house would look even empty. My piano books are all packed away, since I’m not there no one’s gonna use it, and I’m actually bringing most of them to Beijing except for those that I don’t play, which is stored in a box.

When I start packing away shoes, I think there’ll be even less of "me" living in this house. I look around now and still see my things around: my towel, toothbrush, comb, LW’s ring, my white slipper, my leather boots, some clothes hanging behind the door, my plushies on my bed… 16 more days and everything will be gone.

Suddenly felt empty, suddenly wanted very badly not to leave, suddenly didn’t want to grow up. Gave pikachu a tight hug, I was going to leave him behind. It was time for me to move on, he was a symbol of my childhood. He was a gift from my friend I’ve known longest yet still strange, and I’ve treasured it ever-since. (Never washed it also… lolx) There were going to be long cold nights out there in beijing when I am to hug myself to sleep without the presense of Pikachu, something that I’ve grown fond to, nudging its round tummy and tugging its sharp ears. But in its place, I have snoopy, my new found friend… a new beginning.

Hate the feeling of parting, gosh. I’ll miss you guys!

I am blinded by tears

Locked away in fear

By the one I love, cherish and truly dear

Time passes by and leave is near

Yet further the heart wanders there and here

How much I wish

How much I hope

That a droplet of tear

Could make it all dissapear

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All you want is but a smile

The true-self I am to you is foul

You want me well

That, I can tell

But my sorrows my pride

Is but dusts by your side

Tell me, guide me

How shall I love thee

Wings must be spread and let free

Hearts must be learned and let be

Feel Me.

Feel like blogging, but don’t really know what to write about. Today was a slow day… where the world had decided to give me a break by turning really slow. Which, was a good thing… I’m VERY relaxed.. Hehehe. After all the stress and all…

Things hasn’t been going all smooth yesterday night though, she got mad again. Well, it was mainly my attitude problem lar, I couldn’t deny it. But I didn’t do it on purpose, neither did I mean to hurt her in anyways. She was just WAY too sensitive. But I knew she was sensitive all the way, yet I still couldn’t control myself. It was always about the choir if we argued. Well, it would always start with the choir, then of course it will end up somewhere in Pluto.

She promised me that she’d let me stay over at KS’s place, but thanks to my tiny attitude problem… well, to her it was an attitude problem lar… to me, it was just me being me and her being too sensitive. She denied my freedom to have fun by making up some stupid excuses, which by right isn’t very stupid because I found myself struck deaf. Below is part of the situation:

Says her: KS is taking SPM this year. You keep asking her out, how can she study? Can she resist the temptation of having fun? If her SPM not good that time her parents complain, then don’t let her join LittleNoise, who’s fault would it be?

Devil Me: What the? It’s not my problem what, it’s HER taking SPM not ME. She needs to know how to handle her own time by herself lar. Takan I take care for her time for her???

Angel Me: True also…

Devil says to angel: Gosh you are so dumb

Angel says to devil: No I am not! You’re just plain evil!

Me in reality: But then, I’m leaving soon what, can’t I have fun?

Says her: Hang out with somebody else lar! Don’t hang out with those that’s studying?

Me: WHO? Who else is NOT studying? (Flashes Benny across mind, Devil me: *grins* Go out with Benny eh, gosh She’ll be SO pissed!)

Says her: *silence* Stop being selfish. Stop thinking about you and yourself only! Try to learn to think for others can or not?

Then the conversation goes on… about other stuffs. But in the end, I resolved everything by well, the usual way: taking the blame. I agreed to NOT STAY OVER and go home by 11PM. But of course, she couldn’t stop me from going out in the morning. Heheheehe. Yet, of course I still feel miserable because she just can’t stop tugging the leash she had tied around my neck since I was born. I need to BREAKAWAY!

I don’t know. She just came back. And she can’t stop nagging… about my piano student I taught just now… The class was supposed to be 45 minutes, but I came out after approximately 40 minutes. And she was going all "darn" about it. *eyebrow raises* okay lar okay lar. Make me feel all miserable again.

K, she’s gonna nag any minute now about me not going to bed and always stucked in front of the computer. But if I go to bed straight, she’s gonna nag about how I don’t like to tell her what’s been happening in my life. Gosh. What is with her? Can’t she just SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP DON’T WANNA HEAR IT because I’M JUST A KID AND LIFE IS A NIGHTMARE, well I’M SORRY I CAN’T BE PERFECT!

Hrm, I like simple plan. And I love all my friends that stuck up for me! Yay you guys! Yay me!

I woke up and knocked my head into the wall as I tried to grab the handphone to shut the alarm tune away, hoping to doze for a few more minutes. But the hard bump into the wall got every weariness out of me and I was sitting up straight in no time, massaging the soon-to-form bruise on my forehead, sulking early in the morning.

It’s work day today, had to travel early in the morning by LRT to UOA (near KLCC). I had agreed to help Beng Han out on some data entry， Rm50 per day… working for two days straight. Not bad lar, supposedly… I thought. Boy was the LRT packed with working people of all sorts. Star was okay, PUTRA was horrifying. Thank god the LRT was stationed like 3 minutes for every next ride. And even so, I had only managed to climb on board after 4 LRTs passed.

I thought the walk from KLCC’s underground pathway to UOA would be far, but I ended up reaching early instead. The thing is, when I reached… since I was early. The person in charge of me … plus Beng Han, wasn’t around. So their colleagues called them and I was given another job, asides Data Entry. I was to become something like a telemarketer… lolx. Not exactly, more like a PR! Wasai… deal with Public Relations. I was given a stack of details of colleges around M’sia, and I had to call them up one by one to follow up about the "Nescafe Kickstart Roadshow" that was going to be held in their schools, where the company in charge "MYC" was gonna set up booths, hold campaigns about youths and their career.

Lunch hour, I walked back to KLCC and had KFC for lunch. Not bad eh… I wanted to try the new Cheesy Bites Meltz Sandwich for a very very very long time. FINALLY I get a bite of it. The first bite I took I had this reaction: Ugh. Then I guess you don’t need me to write how I felt during the rest of my meal and my poor RM7.99. Sigh… Lolx.

Since I had quite a long lunch hour break, I had fun window shopping around. Gosh, with all the sales going on, I can’t wait to run shopping! GAH~! Around 4pm, I was finally given what I came to do in the first place - Data Entry… about some Contact Lens survey thingy. Well, I keyed in quite a lot, considering that I only did it during that one hour. Well, my job ended at 5pm when I went down and carry the two heavy Rexona deodarant spray bottles up and returned it to Beng Han. Sadly, I can only collect my cheque two weeks later (around end of August). But the money that I’m working for this two days would be bank in tomorrow night into my account. Which means, I can go collect my money on Wednesday… HOHOHOHO~! YAY SHOPPING SPREE! Haha.

Well, I went home later on… bath, slept, ate, practice piano, got some informations on recording studios from Carmen Jie jie. Oh, I managed to chat with KFC… I mean, KC… Benny’s kai gor. He’s kinda nice, humored and all. But is yet to know, since our conversation was brief and cut off in the middle because I had a phone call and he had stuffs to do. Am kinda looking forward to chatting with him another time.

Tonight was rather boring because nobody’s online, I even gave up the laptop to the two younger ones and went to watch TV plus fold all the clothes. Well, mom’s nagging at me already… have to go. Good night!

I just read a post from a friend’s blog that brought tears to my eyes, I would’ve dropped them but there’s something blocking them down, something forcing me to swallow them back. How I wish I had the courage to cry. I surprised myself when I no longer cried watching disney movies these days. What’s happening to me? Where is the lovely duckie I use to know? The one that’s used to embrace her emotions, to show the world how lovely it could be with a smile from her heart. Sigh… What did I do to the poor thing? What did the world do to it.

Where’s the courage I use to have? To laugh when I hear a funny remark, to hug a friend when I suddenly feel like missing them, to cry when ever something touches my heart, to scream when ever someone hurts me. Suddenly I’m afraid… afraid to get in touch with my inner-self. Suddenly crying and laughing and sharing all my emotions with the world is scary. Suddenly I’m covered with a mask when I step outside my world. No… even when I’m in my own world, I see masks of different kinds.

Gosh, you have no idea how very much I am going to miss my home at the thought of leaving here for such a long long time. Wrong. You have no idea how much I’m going to miss the LittleNoise choir. The one and only thing that has my heart attached and locked with a huge padlock. Every face, every voice, every gesture, just by repeating everybody’s images in my mind tickles the deepest emotions in me.

Midnight Puppet had meant just so… so much. Was it the end? Or is it just another beginning? Remembering all the times we spent, I wish time would just stay how it is now and stop so that we could lick every taste and scent greedily before icing our hearts and moving on. LittleNoise, I would say… is my baby. And currently, it has grown up, ready to stand on its own. Hahaha… I wonder how much my parents feels now I think of it. But wings needs to be spread and flown away on its own so that it can search its very piece of sky to adventure. I hope LittleNoise too, is time to fly on its own. Like every parent, I’ll keep an eye on it. Haha… And even if one day (touchwood) when there’s no more LittleNoise, it will always be part of us.

There’s a saying in Jungle book that I think is appropriate to use with LittleNoise…

Jungle Book: "You can always leave the jungle, but the jungle never leaves you."

LittleNoise: "You can always leave LittleNoise, but LittleNoise never leaves you."

AHHHH, I’M SO GONNA MISS YOU GUYS~!

I woke up twice in the night, haunted by nightmares… funny ones, because I can’t help grinning. Then finally at 8:15am I woke up, got ready in no time and headed out to Subang for my piano lesson with my dearest teacher: Loo Bang Hean. (I hope he doesn’t sees this)… lolx. Of course, before every lesson, me and my dad will pak tor and go take breakfast near PJ Old Town, where the Prawn mee is very nice and cheap. But no prawn mee today cuz never buka stall, so we ate wan tan mee instead… not very nice, but still cheap. Only RM2.60 compared to the RM3.00 around Pandan Indah… and RM3:50 around some other places in KL. Cheap lerrr.

Piano class was a-o-kay lor. Considering that I’ve only practiced the piece for one week… (break for two weeks, last week concert mar) I don’t like Debussy! YES! I don’t like him… it is IMPOSSIBLE to sight read his pieces, and they ALL sound WEIRD! And he likes to write CROSS RHYTHM too MUCH~! Man, get a grip, write one more note to make both hands even can die meh? GOSH. It took me like two long days to actually finish sight reading a total of 22 pages of music… then took the next 3 days to actually figure out which goes where and what goes when. Then saturday, managed to bring all the broken bones into one piece, then sunday go for class… geng lerrr. Hehehe. Sigh, now I’m leaving, hopefully I can play the whole thing in its original speed by my next lesson… which is next next week. Aiyor. I’m so gonna miss hean hean… (yikes. I’m so dead if he reads this. Lolx.)

Went home later on, got my butt stuck down onto the computer and played some games… got bored very fast. Then started selling mooncakes… by the way… who wants mooncakes… BUY FROM ME! I’ll post it some day, the details. But not now, cuz lazy to upload photos. Around 3 something, I got ready to go out with WaChaw, she fetched me to her place, got some stuffs, then her mom fetched both of us to Leisure Mall. We shopped around for an hour ++ before we went to Popular, met coincidently with Chin Yi, Chin Wei and their mom. Then when we got fade up and decided to go eat something ourselves, we met the three people we were suppose to meet! Ah-hah! Caught in the act! They were actually SHOPPING in Leisure Mall and they didn’t bother to call us… made us wait… Gee. Lolx.

The people I mentioned in the above paragraph were actually the current directors of the LittleNoise Choir… Khai Shin, Yi Fen, Benny and Wa Chaw of course. What was I doing there? Hrm… finger pointer. Lolx… OHh. Egg-Bone digger. Lolx. Well, we went to secret recipe and had dinner + discussed some major issues happening in Littlenoise… like future plans and all. But after everything (most of the stuffs) was solved, our supposedly "meeting" resolved into something more like "pasar chit chat" where we gossip… gossip… and gossip. Lolx.

What’s the latest thing happening around? Hehehe… Nah, dun wan to tell you guys. Hehe. We know can already. *wink wink* *nudge nudge*

Buddy ahhh… there’s actually A LOT of stuffs I wanna share with you. But you’re always "busy" studying. I know lar, A levels coming up. But people miss you ge mar. Don’t always shove me with "I’m studying ohh" "Sorry eh, busy" or "Chat laterx lor"… GEE. Ten minutes won’t DIE lar! I got so many gossips to tell. Wakakakaka… Some times I wonder, am I making up excuses for you by saying: Nevermind lar, we got plenty of time to catch up later on when you’re done with your A levels. Then it reminds me… hrm, we won’t be seeing each other for a VERY long time because if you don’t remember, I’m leaving soon and I won’t be here end of this year like every year before this… ;)  Don’t blame me if I change buddies ohh. Hehe… threatening. Lolx. Horx the person reading this? Hehe.

My mom decided to come spy on us, by going for dinner very near Leisure Mall and coming to Leisure Mall to shop for stuffs. Hehe, she’s been trying to catch an eye on me with vice president. Hoho. Aiyar, c’mon lar mom! Get a grip! Can you like not pour ice on every guy I get close to? Guys can be friends also you know? It doesn’t mean when you go out with them you’re dating… or when you cling their arms you’re gonna get engage! Sweat drop! So far my bestest friends are mostly of the opposite sex lor. Besides PM of course. Lolx…

Went home later on, after dropping YiFen back at her place. Khai Shin and Benny went back by Bus. It’s good to see them together, well, good to let mommy dearest see them together. Lolx. Then she won’t speak so much.

Right… funny incident of the day: I walked out of this boutique stall after taking a stroll throughly and this uncle around his 50’s came walking at my direction (very near me) and called loudly "Darling!" And I went "WHUAT?" in my brain lar of course, didn’t say it out loud… before I burst into laughters and turned around to share with the others. Well, he was calling for his wife lar… but next time, make sure you are near your wife when you do that. Lolx. Don’t stand in front of a young, innocent and cute looking girl and yell "DARLING!" Lolx. People will drop their eyeballs man… Lolx.

Aite, that’s it for today. Very long already… Good night. Why moderato as the tempo? Well, I like the pace of my current life. It’s well.. hrm, Moderato. Hehe. Lolx.