LittleNoise
I just read a post from a friend’s blog that brought tears to my eyes, I would’ve dropped them but there’s something blocking them down, something forcing me to swallow them back. How I wish I had the courage to cry. I surprised myself when I no longer cried watching disney movies these days. What’s happening to me? Where is the lovely duckie I use to know? The one that’s used to embrace her emotions, to show the world how lovely it could be with a smile from her heart. Sigh… What did I do to the poor thing? What did the world do to it.
Where’s the courage I use to have? To laugh when I hear a funny remark, to hug a friend when I suddenly feel like missing them, to cry when ever something touches my heart, to scream when ever someone hurts me. Suddenly I’m afraid… afraid to get in touch with my inner-self. Suddenly crying and laughing and sharing all my emotions with the world is scary. Suddenly I’m covered with a mask when I step outside my world. No… even when I’m in my own world, I see masks of different kinds.
Gosh, you have no idea how very much I am going to miss my home at the thought of leaving here for such a long long time. Wrong. You have no idea how much I’m going to miss the LittleNoise choir. The one and only thing that has my heart attached and locked with a huge padlock. Every face, every voice, every gesture, just by repeating everybody’s images in my mind tickles the deepest emotions in me.
Midnight Puppet had meant just so… so much. Was it the end? Or is it just another beginning? Remembering all the times we spent, I wish time would just stay how it is now and stop so that we could lick every taste and scent greedily before icing our hearts and moving on. LittleNoise, I would say… is my baby. And currently, it has grown up, ready to stand on its own. Hahaha… I wonder how much my parents feels now I think of it. But wings needs to be spread and flown away on its own so that it can search its very piece of sky to adventure. I hope LittleNoise too, is time to fly on its own. Like every parent, I’ll keep an eye on it. Haha… And even if one day (touchwood) when there’s no more LittleNoise, it will always be part of us.
There’s a saying in Jungle book that I think is appropriate to use with LittleNoise…
Jungle Book: "You can always leave the jungle, but the jungle never leaves you."
LittleNoise: "You can always leave LittleNoise, but LittleNoise never leaves you."
AHHHH, I’M SO GONNA MISS YOU GUYS~!
August 7th, 2006 at 8:53 am
when v continue walk on the life journey, we’ll find that we gains alot, at the same time v lost alot too.. v realize v no longer the same, d one who v once call best frien might turn out to be sumthing else.. perhaps d path v took jz different? perhaps once what v thought was true can jz turn out to b doubts?
make it positively, it’s actually what we call grew up to become more strong to face the world. Tears might be blocked, show d world d mask, v might even hate ourself, but d true is, we are actually what we wanted ourselves to be.. How u see urself, tht’s what u are.
Sumtimes v might sit down and moan what we lost, d way we changed, d way v acted, v might even hate d way we are right now, we think that I can be jz like a normal peepz.. but deeply inside v know v never wanna be a normal dude.. D life you choosed, therefore needa bear d consequences too.. Walk on, dream on.. and be true to ur heart.. Listen to it.. don’t lost the purity oh!
LittleNoise, The noisemakes said, “we are the creater, they are the copier”, when others people is doing what we did, we already setting our next goal. Trust d noise makers, trust the new board, trust your choice, trust d hidden ability we have.. dare not say we won’t let u down.. but we’ll prove our best. Rmb, we still have children Noisemakers oh! LittleNoise power is gonna rockz on!! Maybe one day u in d other site of d contry also can listen to our angel voice?
Cheer oh!!
August 7th, 2006 at 6:06 pm
Nice comments!
But a lot of grammatical error… some times have to read three to four times before I actually understand… LOLX. But improved a lot already lar, so, gambatte!
Hehe… thanks for actually taking the time to comment me oh~!
August 8th, 2006 at 12:58 am
Why you make my tears drop? You are right! “You can always leave LittleNoise, but LittleNoise never leaves you.” We are going to miss you wherever you are. We will also never forget all the sweet memories we had with all the noisemakers. Good luck in your future studies.
August 9th, 2006 at 5:32 am
Gona miz me 2?
although i’m quite new in choir. I reali lik little noise! well,keep in touch o! dun 4get me o… good luck in everything!