DuckieDroplets

Fate. Just receieved a new message in friendster, this guy telling me that he’s still single and is waiting for fate to show him his path. Do I believe in fate? I can’t NOT believe after what I’ve experienced for the pass 4 to 5 months. BUT… fate can be rather funny some times.

Let’s see… fate brought me to know X and let all sorts of crazy fate-ish things occur and happen between us. Seeing each other at the craziest hours, bumping into each other at the weirdest corners, thinking and breathing about just the same air. Someone whom you have no idea about suddenly grows ultimately close to you… And just when you think hey, he might be your "one and only"… and just when you start to believe that, this might be "it". Then fate grins and sends a joke up your doorstep… and says: Oh, I’m attached to somebody else.

Thunderstrikes? Earthquakes? Tsunamis? Name it. Get it. To person above: "OKAY. So if it wasn’t meant to be??? What’s with all the surprises? What’s with all the possibilities??? What’s your PROBLEM??? FUN IZZIT???"

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Recently. When people start asking: "Do you have a boyfriend?". All I found myself doing was "smile". If it was me 3 months ago, I might say: "NAH" without thinking. Do I have a boyfriend? *smiles*. No. He’s not my boyfriend… but I can’t seem to answer that question.

I don’t know what fate is trying to do now… are you bringing me a new best friend? Or are you bringing me somebody that I might hurt if I do anything experimental stupidly?

"If it is yours. It’s yours" A-hah… how do you know it’s yours? How can you be sure. "You cannot be sure of anything in Love. It’s a mystery for yours to be solve." A-hah… So even if you see an almost-road-end in front of you, you continue walking until you REALLY reach the road-end and then bump yourself hard? Or maybe you just not walk and never know whether if you will ever reach that road-end?

OKAY. If it’s mine… Why make it SO darn hard? Because Life is??? Lolx. My mom actually asked me when I’m getting a boyfriend…twice. WOW… my mom??? Sick in the head eh? I’ve been thinking for some time now, and I don’t think it’s really time for my to settle or commit into a relationship. It wouldn’t be fair for the other because I have nothing to promise…

If my boyfriend’s in Beijing… what happens when I go overseas to furtherstudy my masters 4 years later? Where am I going? I don’t know where EXACTLY, but I’m definitely going. If he’s not going? … Then what if my boyfriends’ back in KL? Long distance relationship? See each other 2 months per year in midst this 5 years of my bachelor degree? Then not see each other during my masters and PHD? Or pray that fate will bring us together somewhere out there?

But I do love. and I wanna be love… So haha… I read in this article somewhere on the web analysing people born on the same day as I am, saying we are: "Part-time Lovers". I think it’s quite appropriate to put it that way for now… There’s no relationship… No commitments… no promises. Just… more than "just friends". Better than besties… just… Just "us".

If love can see us through, then we’ll be together… somewhere out there where dreams come true. Like they say, if it’s yours… it’s yours. *shrugs* Sad life.